Thursday, December 23, 2010
Monday, December 20, 2010
Forever And Ever...
Riisha: I swear Pakhi, I'm never gonna talk to him ever again in my life...
Pakhi: Are you serious that this time you are "actually" serious?
Riisha: Yeah! seriously... I'm deleting his, his mom's and his landline number, everything... And as it is I'm going away from Kolkata to Delhi and will never meet him ever again.... [Based on True Incidents]
Neel, I'll miss you a lot! I swear to god I will.
C'mon Riisha dont act like a kid now... See if you continue saying so, then I wont be able to go. Don't you want me to have a good career and this is a lifetime opportunity, getting a chance in MIT Pune is not child's play.
I know but I seriously dont have anyone else overhere for me.. You were the only one.. I'll miss you.. A Lot..
Don't worry "Rii" I'll never forget you and I'll be there for you Forever and ever! Goodbye!!
I didnt want to leave kolkata.. But leaving a chance to get a degree of Engineering from MIT(Maharashtra Institute of Technology) Pune is like the most Stupid-iest thing anyone could possibly do, but frankly speaking I didnt have any problem in acting stupid, but my dad did. He wouldn't let me do so. So I had to leave kolkata and go to pune for admission Counselling. If my admission would get confirmed there, then I wouldnt return to Kolkata before four months atleast, that is only in the New year break.
Duronto "Non-stop" Express took me as fast as possible away from Rii to Pune and this train didnt halt anywhere to give me a chance to flirt with girls that board the train from various stations, like in my previous train journeys. In short My misery and grief was killing me and I had no escape . Throughout the train journey there wasn't a single moment when I didnt think of Rii.. okay, I admit it, there wasn't one but may be four-five, just when food was served. Trust me, Duronto express food is the best among all the other trains I've travelled in.
After reaching Pune I was warmly welcomed by an Enormous number of people who politely pushed me, thrashed me between them and some even used kind verbal abuses to greet me just for the fact that I was blocking their way on the station platform... huh! Pune station crowd is so Hospitable!!
I finally managed to reach my Guest house somehow. The first thing that I noticed in the room was the "AC". No... I HAVE seen an Air Conditioner before in my life, its not that I haven't, but I noticed it just for Rii... No, even she HAS seen an Air Conditioner before in her life, but its just that the "AC" was very special to us. It all started one day when I told Rii that I had two cars but no "AC" at my place and she got a brand new topic to get me jealous from because she had two AC's at her place.
From that day onwards, everyday she tried to get me jealous of her AC and I acted as if I was getting irritated but trust me it was real fun.
Hello! Rii!
Hi! You reached??
Yup! you know what.. I gotta AC.. I gotta AC.., I hummed.
What??
Yeah! I gotta AC in my room.. Finally!
Huh! so what, thats temporary, in your guest room..
You never know this might turn out to be permanent!
The next day was the big day...
My counselling day at the MIT pune campus.
I went there with my Dad and by now I had already decided, that I get a slight chance to escape and go back to Kolkata to my Rii and I'd blindly go for it.
Counseller: Which course would you like to take?
Me: Sir, I'd like to take Electronics.
Counseller: Oh well, we have a seat left in Electronics. So is it final?
Me: Oh sorry sir did I say electronics only, I perhaps meant electronics and telecommunication.
Counseller:Oh! I guess you said electronics.. but yes even that is fine, we have a seat or two in electronics and telecommunication left as well.. So confirmed?
Me: Sir, sorry, but actually I was wondering whether I can get Mechanical Engineering!
Counseller: Master Neel, are you sure you want to do engineering??
Me: Yes sir.. Yes sir..
Counseller: Because I think you are still confused.
My Dad: What do you want, be straight about it.
Me: Mechanical... sure sure! (God please dont leave any seat for me, God please)
Counseller: I'm sorry son but there is no seat available for Mechanical.
Me:(yipeeeeeeeee) Oh.. so bad.. not even one sir.... I said that in a tone as if I was shattered and Devastated after hearing that!
Dad: Why whats wrong with Electronics-Telecomm , its in great demand nowadays.
Counseller: Yes, absoluletly, why dont you opt for that?
Me: yeahh.... but... no.... I mean... its ok... but I... hmmm... I dont know...
Dad: What??.. Decide!!
Me: Sir, can I please get a day's time to decide?
Counseller: Yes sure, but be confident and sure about your decision by tomorrow! Its your future afterall!
Me:Sure Sir! Thank you!
24 hours...
To Think..
To Plan...
To Escape..
To Convince..
To Do something stupid...
And I'm awesome at the last one!
Dad! Dad! Read this article in the newspaper, it says that a Lecturer in MIT pune molested a student on campus.
Hmm, Nowadays nobody can be trusted, said dad.
Exactly dad! I'm scared, I dont want to join MIT.
What?? You are not a girl!! You are a strong lad.
hmm.... I know... but.... Nowadays... you know.. there are those kind of people......
What!!
No No... nothing.. I gotta go, bye dad!
See I told you guys that I'm awesome in Stupidity.
I tried again...
Dad, I checked over the net, from the previous 3 years records its clear that placements from MIT pune has dropped by a large large margin.
So what son, you dont have to think about placements, you are going to do MBA right?
Yeah.... but.... still.... you know....hmmm... gotta go bye!
And again...
Ragging!! Dad! Ragging! MIT pune has a record of the highest number of suicide's due to ragging of freshers. I cant face this dad, no I cant. I dont want to join MIT.
I finally made some tear drops fall from my eyes. Thanks to my realistic awesome acting and freshly cut onion!!
See son dont worry you'll be fine and if you dont want to join MIT, nobody's forcing you to do so. If you want to do Engineering from kolkata, you can, but you just have to promise me that you'll study hard and give me what I want, that is a good GPA.
Finally, with a million other excuses and reasons for why I didnt and why I shouldn't join MIT, dad finally agreed but made me promise that I'll work hard.
This hurt me..
I felt miserable...
I didnt want to break my fathers heart and expactations...
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Huh!
Forget it!
I'm an expert in doing so.. I've been doing just that from 12 long years from 1st grade to 12th grade, so why not once again...
I was relieved..
I didnt have to stay in Pune..
I could go back to my Rii... yipeeee...
Wait let me give Rii the good news...
Calling Rii...
tring tring...
Hello! Hey Rii!!
Hey Hi!
Guess what! I............
What?.. What???...... Hello Neel??
Yeah... I.. I.... I had Chocolate Ice-cream today of the Cream and Fudge factory.
What!! I am missing you so so so so much and you are having ICE-CREAM...!!! Get lost... I dont wanna talk to you.
Sweety chill, You can have Bournvita at home, tell mummy to make some for you... ha ha ha!
Very Funny... she said in a kiddish sarcastic voice.
Hey gotta go, bye!!
Bye, Miss you!!
I was gonna tell her that I'm coming back, but then I got this killer idea of a deadly surprise.. hu ha ha ha ha!!
I have always had this concept that " People Who never cry dont know the value of a Smile" and "Only the People who have been really sad know what it actually feels like to be happy".
I dont know if that makes any sense but my simple point is I wanted to hurt Rii, make her angry and sad,tell her that I'm permanently staying here in pune and then one day all of a sudden appear in front of her in Kolkata and surprise her just to see that Wonderful, Breath taking away Smile on her lovely and Beautiful face!! Awwwh! Cant wait to see that Smile!!
Making her very very very angry and all of a sudden Very Happy would double the impact of my surprise and the width of her smile.
Calling Rii...
Hey.... Rii... (in a very sad lowly tone)
Hey wasssup! You seem to be low, what happened?
Bad News!
What????
Got admission here, I'll meet you now only after four months.
Hey dont say that. I cant even imagine of being here without you. Then even I'll go to Delhi and take admission there.
Cant help it now, its final.
You had promised me that you'll always be by my side in good and bad times forever and ever, what now??
Sorry, I cant help it! Dad forced me to stay here.
Please Neel, Please... Come back... Dont do this...
Its too late now...
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Hello Rii.. You there??? Hello??
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You crying.... Rii, Please dont cry... Rii... Baby Please...
She hung up!
This wasnt going to be easy, for both me and Rii.
I felt terribly bad that I had to hurt her so much. I feel like cremating that person alive who hurts or makes my Rii cry. But what now, when I'm the one hurting her. I felt I should tell her the truth that Your Neel is going nowhere, but then I thought of that Smile I wanted to see. Just a few days, Things will be fine!
The next day I went shopping for her. I thought I'll buy her something that is available exclusively in Pune because She loves Pune city. I bought a "Golden Leaf Ganpati" Lord's idol for her. Man, She'll love this for sure.
On returning back to the guest house, I got her call...
Hello!
Where the hell have you been Neel?? She said in a frustrated voice.
Nothing... Chillin........ Went out for a date.
What!!!!! She screamed! With whom???
Ahhh.... hmmm..... Ahh.. There's this girl.... My old school friend of Pune. We... She didn't let me finish.
Whats her name?? she asked angrily.
Niki...
Niki what??
Niki Kulkarni.
She hung up again.
After a few minutes she called again.
Hello!
I saw her profile picture on Facebook, She looks terrible!
Aaa... Jealous.... he he he...
Shut Up! Full day you were busy with that bitch??? You didnt even have the time to call me once.
Actually... I was...
Shut up! You never told me about this chick of yours before!
I was gonna...
Shut up! You didnt miss me even for a single second. You forgot me. You're happy over there... Enjoy Enjoy! You dont care about me... It doesn't bother to you anymore if I cry... Bye.. Get Lost... You've hurt me a lot!!
She hung up!
I thought I'll call her, then I thought lets intensify the effect.
Few minutes later...
Rii calling...
Hello!
You didnt even have the courtesy to call me back... You have become so careless... So different... So mean... Have fun with that Niki bitch.... Bye.. Dont ever call me....
She hung up again...
Should I call.... nah... Lets triple the impact!!
Few seconds later...
Rii calling...
Hello!
See... No reaction from you... You dont care at all... When you were over here, you used to reach me within ten minutes when ever I needed you... and now... you dont even bother to call once... You have become so insensitive... get lost, bye!!! She broke down.
She hung up!
Forget it! I cant take this anymore.. I'm calling her...
Calling Rii....
"The Vodafone number you are trying to reach is currently Switched Off, Please try again later"
Riisha: I swear Pakhi, I'm never gonna talk to him ever again in my life...
Pakhi: Are you serious that this time you are "actually" serious?
Riisha: Yeah! seriously... I'm deleting his, his mom's and his landline number, everything... And as it is I've decided to go away from kolkata to Delhi... I'm taking admission in a college there..
Next day.
Rii Called.
Hello! Rii!
Sorry Neel!
For what?
For all that I told you yesterday, I was very frustrated.
No, Infact I'm sorry...
No, It was my fault, its your life afterall. I'm sorry!!
Ah... well....... Its okay then!!
What!!!!! What do you mean by its okay!! It means you think it was my fault, my mistake.. You are so insensitive... So rude...
But You were the one who said it was your fault!
And you agreed!! Bye...
She hung up!
This time I called...
Hello Rii! Please listen to me before hanging up.
What?
I AM SORRY.... Please forgive me... I should have called you once..
Its okay! Atleast you realised your mistake. So are you sure you are staying there in Pune and there's no way to return. I still haven't applied for Delhi College.
No way to come back, Its too late. By the way when does the Delhi college admission process start??
Ten days later.
Thank god I'm returning in two days, I thought.
hmmm.... You know what Rii!!
what??
I kissed Niki on her cheeks today..
She hung up!
Ha ha ha! That felt funny first but then I felt bad that I hurt her again but then.. Double Impact.. Smile.. killer Surprise..
You have One new Message.
Opening Inbox...
I never told you Neel... but... I Loved you.. always forever and ever!! - Rii
Whoa!! Now thats a message!!
I tried calling her the whole day that day, but she had switched off her mobile for the entire day.
The next day I had my train back home, to my Rii, to kolkata. But, there was a serious problem!
When the train would be travelling from remote areas where there is no moblile network coverage, at that time if Rii would call me then the mobile operator would use the local language of that region for the Voice mail service to inform the caller that ,"the mobile is out of network coverge", and not "Marathi" that is the local language of Pune, that was being used for my stay in Pune till now. She loved hearing the Marathi operator and there was maximum possibility that she would notice the change in language. Even if I switched of my moblile, the same disastrous phenomenon could not be avoided and from that Rii would come to know that I'm coming back. This would spoil all my hard work and my killer surprise, as I knew she would definitely call me however angry and pissed she was on me unless....
Hello Rii..
Hey! she spoke in a low voice.
Whats your F**cking problem!! You cant see me happy! You are so selfish. When there was time for us to be together, at that time you had commitment issues and now when I'm happy moving on with Niki, you just can't stand my happiness!
Hey you getting me wrong. she said in a lower voice.
Shut the crap! You are so jealous of my happiness. You love me, huh, Crap you love me, you are just jealous, get lost Rii.. please.. get lost.. and do me a favour never call me ever again in life.. Infact you've got "My Swear" never ever call me... Bye forever!!!
I hung up!
Words sometimes hurt more than actions!!
You dont need physical torture when you can do it mentally!!
I boarded my train finally... Gyaneshwari Express! I was not very fond of this train because the food aint any good compared to that of Duronto Express. Awwh! I miss my Duronto express. But it was okay since I miss my Rii more. Just to make no mistakes in my surprise and leave no stone unturned, I didnt tell anyone at all about this suprise. Not even my close friends. I didnt want anything, anything at all to go wrong. I wanted this surprise to be perfect. I dreamt of my killer surprise quite a times and planned the surprise sequences already in my mind. First I'd hug her so tight that I might just suffocate her to death. Then I'd take a photo of her famous Breath-taking away and deadly Smile. Then I'd kiss her on her forehead and tell her "I love you too Rii". Then hug her again tightly and then whisper slowly in her ears "Niki doesn't exist at all" and then we both would burst out into laughter. Oh god!! Please take me back to my Rii as soon as possible.
The train moving at a speed of 100km/hr seemed slow to me. Time wasn't passing at all. Rii Rii Rii.... nothing else came to my mind. I had plans of our future already going on in my head. I'd pick her up and drop her everyday to college. I'd kiss her everyday. I'd talk to her everyday for atleast 20hours...okay 15hours...okay atleast 10hours. I was falling in love with Rii all over again. Time wasn't passing, so I decided to read Rii's old saved messages..
:::Message:::
I never told you Neel... but... I Loved you.. always forever and ever!! - Rii
I decided to write a reply-
I love you too Rii. I have always loved you! And this is the last time ever that I'm hurting you, I'll never hurt you ever ever again... I promise! And i'll be with you always in Good and Bad times forever and ever!! --Neelu!!
!!Message saved to draft!!
Oh god!! I miss my Rii so so so much! Please make time go fas...
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::Breaking News::
Gyaneshwari Express train accident! RailwayTracks blown by Maoists that cause the fatal crash. Very few survivors. Most dead on the spot. Railway minister to reach location by morning. Worst train accident in the history of Indian Railway. The coaches of the train hit by another train. Family and Friends mourn. Does compensation give back everything??
Riisha: I swear Pakhi, I'm never gonna talk to him ever again in my life...
Pakhi: Are you serious that this time you are "actually" serious?
Riisha: Yeah! seriously... I'm deleting his, his mom's and his landline number, everything... And as it is I'm going away from kolkata to Delhi and will never meet him ever again. I'm breaking friendship with all our mutual friends. They all will obviously support him. I am damn angry on him. I might never return to kolkata. He is so insensitive. I hate him. I truly loved him, but now I hate him. I have deleted my Facebook profile too. He had made it for me and now I deleted it because of him. I'm going forever and will never keep contact with anyone here. Even you are going to London, so no one here for me. I hate him. He has hurt me a lot. I'll never forgive him.
Pakhi: Are you sure you dont want to call him??
Riisha: I cant, even if I wanted to. I take this swear thing very seriously. I dont wanna break it and want anything bad to happen to him. I'll never forgive him and infact from today onwards I'll hate him Forever and ever.......
A Journey to Remember.... A True Story
Everyone else was fast asleep, but I preferred staying awake and watching her sleep. It was an hour past midnight. After an hour more the world seemed to stop and she along with her family left. She saw me and gave me that last Goodbye smile and I went on to sleep finally…..
I hate traveling in Non-AC sleeper coaches but during the summer vacations getting a reservation done in the AC coaches that to in the only train from Howrah to Pune is quite impossible. I therefore wasn’t very excited of my journey from Howrah to Pune in Non-AC. But I had no choice as I had to appear for a competitive exam in Pune.
The First day was as boring as expected but also irritating as I was greeted by a bunch of Irritating and annoying Co-passenger kids. I hate traveling with kids. No sense of Privacy and definitely no sense of Noise pollution. Cry cry cry all day, and if not that Jump around from one berth to another. God! I was freaked out!
But the next day with the morning light came an angel to my rescue. Yes, She was gorgeous and damn cute. Though she had this noisy family around or infact families. The train halted at Raipur station early in the morning from where she and her family boarded the train. Actually it was her family and another family along with them. I knew this would be exciting right away. They had some seats in front of my berth and some behind.
Two hours passed and her family had nicely settled down. They were playing Antakshari making a lot of noise which was irritating me. I finally decided to let go of my excitement and leave her alone as I lost my interest. I went back to my upper berth, removed my mp3 from my handbag and started listening to much better tunes than her family’s antakshari. After half an hour I decided it was time to lose some weight and Inspect the sanitary conditions of non-ac coaches. I stopped my mp3 and heard a much better voice than that of Avril Lavigne whom I was listening to on my mp3. Wow! It was that same girl who was singing a bollywood song and she was really good.
After losing some weight I decided to check her out and sit right in front of her. I didn’t have the guts to talk to her as she was guarded by her brother and father on each side. 15mins later she noticed me noticing her and then I noticed that she was actually getting irritated of my noticing of her. She waited for a couple of more minutes for me to stop but I guess I was too much into noticing her curves that I just couldn’t stop. She finally decided to go to the upper berth and lie down there. After a couple of minutes I moved up to, to my upper berth just opposite to hers.
Wow! She was one beautiful lady. She had a round face, light brown eyes, smooth lips and beautiful hair which seemed to be silky soft. I wish I could have touched her hair. She wasn’t slim but neither bulky, she was kind of medium you can say with perfect composition and features. I kept staring at her shamelessly.
She now was more irritated and thus she shifted to the upper berth behind my berth to escape my vigil inspection of her. It was afternoon time and was really hot. She slept on her berth and I unfortunately had to sleep on mine, alone! I kept my cap on my knee and bend my legs while I was lying down. From her side it looked as if someone wearing a cap was noticing her. She didn’t realize that before but as soon as she did, she woke up in a shocked way making some noise. I woke up too. She was atleast content that I wasn’t cheap enough to check her out while she was sleeping. She went down the berth and I faced towards her and kept staring at her. Now it was her turn to inspect the sanitary conditions. I gave her silent signs that I’ll be waiting to see her come back after inspection. She didn’t smile back but just walked away. The train stopped at a station and she got down and came from the opposite side so as to avoid me. For the first time a little shame grasped me when I saw her coming from the other side and I went to sleep. What was I doing! What was I thinking! I must have really irritated her! I went to sleep deciding to stop my act of cheapness and let her travel in peace. My eyes were closed but I was awake listening to her family’s conversation from which I figured out that they weren’t going to Pune but to shirdi, to a temple and they would get down at a station that would arrive at sometime by midnight. Two hours passed by and I hadn’t seen her once till then.
Finally I decided to face her being embarrassed and I came down my berth like a shy bride. I sat right in front of her but looking at the beautiful scene outside the window and not inside. After some minutes I got a glimpse of her and to my surprise she was staring at me now. At once I looked at her and realised that now she was constantly staring at me with her eyes seeming to apologize to me for something that I didn’t know. I didn’t understand first but then I realized that she might have felt that I was angry on her for coming from the other side of the compartment trying to avoid me. Wow! And I was feeling that I irritated her, nice huh! She removed her hair band and let her hair free. She moved some hair off her face so as to give me a nice view of her face uninterrupted by a single hair. She smiled at me and wanted me to watch her. I was totally confused. I didn’t know what to say or what to do. This was completely not as I had expected her to treat me. Then I decided to live in the moment and I started watching her again, complete paradise. It seemed as if we were playing Eye-fight. Eye to eye, face to face, smile to smile. That was undoubtedly the best moments of my journey. After a few minutes she moved her lips and gestured to be sorry and smiled. I smiled back and gestured that it was okay. It was okay! Huh! It was awesome. I thought I’ll tell her that I wasn’t angry after all but then I chucked the thought of it. From then onwards till night, may be for 3 hours, we smiled at each other and watched each other smile back. Not for a minute did I take my eyes off her. We didn’t even think of the fact that we were just co-passengers and soon we would have to split ways. I guess we both believed in living in the moment and not thinking of the future. I guess that’s the right way of living and “enjoying” life.
“What’s life with the sorrows of the past and tension of the future without enjoying the present.”
Everyone else was fast asleep, but I preferred staying awake and watching her sleep. It was an hour past midnight. After an hour more the world seemed to stop and she along with her family left. She saw me and gave me that last Goodbye smile and I went on to sleep finally. I didn’t even notice which station did she get down on. I cherished each moment that I spent with her. Now I was dreaming about her. Did I fall in love with her? Did she love me? What was this, just attraction? I asked myself all these questions, but I had answers to none. Then I suddenly woke up and started smiling…..
Damn! I didn’t even get to know her name….
---Dipronil Mondal
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